It's dawning on me how soon finals are coming up, as June approaches. I haven't even found half of my old tests and assignments for mathematics to go over! I guess I'm going to need some time off of here to get prepared. I want to do good...

Also, today is Mother's Day. Usually I enjoy it because it's one of the only times my parents are relaxed and not looking to fight, but these past few weeks have been spent fighting over the littlest to the biggest of things. I also, not too long ago, had my mother find out about something I seriously hoped would stay secret, and she blew up at me and threatened to never let me write again.

I am trying, but ultimately, I feel like I'm failing myself. Almost always, whenever I give 100%, it feels like it's never enough, and then I start falling short.

All I need is someone who I can count on, someone who understands when everyone else doesn't. I'm starting to realize how invisible I feel, as though I am transparent to the world, and they can't see the details and problems that eat me up inside.

Here's a quiz to get my mind off some things...

Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
1.) Write a novel
2.) Find love
3.) Learn 8 different languages

Three Names You Go By:
1.) Rae
2.) Raegan
3.) Raegana

Three Screen Names You Have Had:
1.) rottenpeeches ?
2.) *raegan
3.) *rae

Three Physical Things You Like About Yourself:
1.) My eyes
2.) My height
3.) My hands

Three Parts Of Your Heritage:
1.) Swedish
2.) English
3.) Irish

Three Things That Scare You:
1.) Darkness
2.) Public Speaking
3.) Airplanes

Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:
1.) Writing paper
2.) Drinks
3.) My brain to think with

Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1.) Band t-shirt
2.) purple pajama pants
3.) Headband

Three Of Your Favorite Bands/Musical Artists:
1.) Filter
2.) Placebo
3.) Nine Inch Nails

Three Of Your Favorite Songs:
1.) Take A Picture-Filter
2.) Song To Sing Good-Bye-Placebo
3.) The Hand That Feeds-NIN

Three Things You Want In A Relationship:
1.) Kindness
2.) Honesty
3.) Compassion

Two Truths And A Lie (in no particular order):
1.) I was born in July
2.) I love cats more than dogs
3.) I like killing insects

Three Physical Things About The Preferred Sex That Appeal To You:
1.) Piercing eyes
2.) Tall and slim body
3.) Thin face

Three Of Your Favorite Hobbies:
1.) Writing
2.) Photography
3.) Swimming

Three Things You Want To Do Really Badly Right Now:
1.) Ace Math
2.) Paint my room
3.) Get out for summer vacation

Three Careers You're Considering/You've Considered:
1.) Author
2.) Chef
3.) Photographer

Three Places You Want To Go On Vacation:
1.) Russia
2.) Poland
3.) Japan

Three Names You Like:
1.) Carrie
2.) Natasha
3.) Mark

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Girl:
1.) I love to look nice
2.) Hyper sensitive
3.) Very romantic

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Boy:
1.) I love comics
2.) I don't mind gorey films
3.) I love hard rock music

so, that would be about it for now.

Rae